To Do it or Not To Do it.... Online Dating.

So, in the last few years as I have remained single I have gone back and forth about the online dating thing. I have met some great people that are good friends, and I have met some crazy people that now I have to avoid contact with.

As of late I have gone back to it with an open mind and just hoping to make some new friends for the most part. Unfortunately as things this time have gone on I have been getting a lot of interest from guys that honestly in some cases could be my FATHER. Now don't get my wrong I don't have a problem dating older guys, but I think I need to draw the line somewhere and for me that line has to be before they are having grandchildren.

And I know a few people that have met the one they are now spending eternity with online. So there are some success stories and some not so successful stories I guess. I know that it is not for everyone but how do you know if it is for you? Is it just something that you feel, do you have to learn the hard way but getting rejected over and over again by the same guys who won't write back and won't chat with you when you try? Or do you just play stupid and keep on trying until either you run out of options or you buy a lifetime membership to a website and start cyber-stalking the ones that really interest you and forget marriage... you basically marry your computer because you can't drag yourself away long enough to do more than shower and eat? I am just not sure how long I should keep doing this before I give up and start pricing mail order husbands so that I can start my family.

So now I ask a question, should I keep at it and hope for the best? OR do I move on and go back to the good ole fashion just going to activities and hoping to catch someones eye from across the room or the buffet table?

Bittersweet Times

So, I have been trying to sell my wedding dress for about a year with little interest from anyone. And I hadn't thought much about it the last month or so but last night I posted it on craigslist and today I got a hit from someone that is really interested. I am happy for this person, happy that someone will wear it again and have the wonderful day that comes with getting married. I am also very sad, sad to think that someone else will be wearing my dress. Someone else will be making those memories that I made in the same dress, but mine are just that memories. It is time for this dress to make someone else a happy bride. So to that unknown girl out there that is going to put on this dress and marry that guy, Good luck. May you have every happiness that life can bring. I hope that this dress makes you feel as beautiful as I felt in it the first time I put it on and saw the look on my Fathers face.

Someday, my prince will come and when he does, I will wear another white dress.

Stupid Inversion layer

Ok, so I haven't seen the sunshine in what feels like ages. There is this stupid inversion layer over Boise that just won't lift. It is dark and cloudy and miserable. I hate it. I am so ready for the spring, and if I can't have that at least a day or two of sunshine. I don't even really care if it gets warm, I just want to see blue sky and sun.

So as those of you who can, enjoy nicer weather, don't get me wrong I know that there are some of you that are living in sub-zero temps and I am sorry for that. Again for those of you that are enjoying nicer weather please think warm thoughts for those of us who are freezing cold and living under the clouds.

Airports, People, and Holidays. A story of a girl.

So, I have decided that since I spend 6 out of 7 days of any given week at the airport working it is time that I shared some of my stories with the world. Some will make you laugh and some will make you cry but it is the world of travel and emotions run very high inside the walls of the airport. Trust me.

So to start off my new angle on blogging is a story that happened to me somewhere around Dec. 20th or 21st of 2008.

I had been working several days at 18 or 20 hours a day because Seattle and Portland had been dealing with freezing rain and 90% of our flights had canceled because of the weather there. The reason being that Seattle and Portland are the major hub airports for the airline I work for along with the many other airlines that serve these two major airports in the Pacific Northwest.

I was about half way through my day and all I had seen all day long were the same faces of the same people that I had been dealing with for the previous 2 or 3 days. I had a younger girl approach me and ask me if there was anyway to get to Portland or Pullman, WA. I looked and told her that her only hope was going to be Pullman if she wanted to go anywhere in the next 3 to 5 days. Yes that is really how backed up our flights were. The weather started the Friday before Christmas and kept at it until the Tuesday before. So our company alone displaced thousands and thousands of people that were going to visit loved ones for the holiday. The highways and roads between Boisea and Seattle had been closed on and off as well so driving was not a great option either.

Back to this girl, Sorry. So as I was booking her a flight to Pullman, for those of you who don't know where that is. It is about 45 min. away from Lewiston ID. Not far from Moscow, ID home of UofI. She began telling me the story of how a trip from Oakland CA, going to Portland had landed her in Boise, ID. This girl and boarder her flight on Friday night totally clueless to the weather that was about to hit Portland. By the time the aircraft got to Portland it was to bad for them to land. So they do the next safest thing and divert the airplane Reno, NV of all places. I guess that was the closest airport with somewhat good weather. So she gets to Reno, where she knows no one and because it is due to a weather situation we are not providing hotel rooms or anything else of these people. She manages to get a flight out of Reno to the only place she can Boise. She comes to Boise where thankfully she has and Aunt. She spends a few days here making efforts everyday to get a flight to Portland to have Christmas with her Grandmother as planned but has no success. So on this day she finally comes to the conclusion that she just needs to get out of Boise as soon as she can because if she can't she may not until New Years. That was the case with some of our passengers by the way. So she calls her sister at U of I and asks if she can come there for Christmas instead. So, I send this girl off to Pullman. She looks at me and smiles as I hand her the new ticket after finding her a flight the day after Christmas to Portland just 2 days before she is suppose to go back to Oakland. So that she can still see her Grandmother even though her Holiday plans had been ruined by for lack of a better person to blame... ME. She gives me a big hug and thanks me for all that I had done. She was not the only person grateful mind you but she was the only one that gave me a hug. I was at the end of my rope that day. I had been yelled at and verbally abused more than once a day while this was all going on and this girl who honestly was about my age was so nice and just grateful that she was going to be with someone in her family for the holiday.

As she left, and I was getting ready to call it a day and go home to pack so that I could go home for what would be my first Christmas at home in 4 years. I was to grateful for my family and my friends and the chance that we all have to celebrate. Just do me a favor and plan in advance. Try not to fly with 5 days of Christmas, because the weather sucks in the winter in Idaho and Utah and a lot of other places in the country and chances are things will either be delayed or canceled and you do not want to be one of the thousands of people that spent 4 days sleeping on the floor in the Seattle airport this last December.

I love what I do. I meet interesting people some nice... some not so nice but all of them are going somewhere to either see family or celebrate something. In those cases where I get the passenger that is on the way to say goodbye to a family member to loved one, I want to cry with them because it is a hard thing to do and traveling... Lets be honest it is stressful, not really what you want to be dealing with when you are already upset. I laugh with the ones that are on the way to Mexico or Hawaii to celebrate birthdays or anniversaries. I tease the ones that are going to Las Vegas, cause we all know what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas. And I get to see the lit up faces of little kids getting to get on an airplane for the first time and the excitement and the thrill that they are about to have. Travel often with family if you can, it may be a road trip or by air but it always create memories that we never forget.

No News Is ?????

So I have had a lot of people asking me about the job thing. Well I haven't heard anything and I am not sure if no new is good news or bad news. So I am still waiting.

In the mean time, there has been some fun weather working its was across the state. FOG.... and well I am not a big fan of this weather anomaly at all. It is hard to predict and even harder to fly in. So I look out the window and what do I see... A big cloud of FOG and I can't see through it or around it or over it and not really under it either. My headlights reflect off of it back into my face. I do not like it at all.

What The Future May Hold

Ok, so I have been posting some very vague status lines on my facebook page this week and I have had a lot of questions about them. I was trying not to go public with my news to soon because I am not sure it will happen but I had to tell my mom today because I had to change some appointments around on Monday.

I have applied for an open position at the Idaho Falls Airport. I am trying to transfer back. I have no idea if or when this will happen but if things work out I should be back living with Mom and Dad by the end of February at the latest.

I have some mixed feelings about this although I know it is what I want to do. I am excited at the idea of spending more time with my family and friends that are over there. At the same time I am sad to leave the friends that I have here in Boise. I love it here, I love my work and I love my friends so it is a very bittersweet prospect.

Please keep your fingers crossed for me and I will let everyone know when I find out what is going to happen.

Happy New Year

So I know I am a little bit behind everyone else posting the New Years blog but I have been in Idaho Falls visiting for a few days. I made a last minute trip last week when CJ and I spoke on the phone and he asked me to jump a flight to come over while Aunt Violet, Uncle Mike and Steve were there for a few days. So I did.

I am so glad to start the new year. I know that it is going to be so much better than last year, I can feel it in my bones. I rang in the new year just the way that I wanted to, with some great friends and some great fun. My friend Kristen and I went with her little bro and husband to the LDSSA activity on the BSU campus. But before that we met at their house and watched Baby Mama and played a little Rockband, we are pretty dang good if I do say so myself. Then we danced, watched Ben and Devin play on the giant inflatable toy, watched a some what entertaining magic show, ran into some other friends and danced some more. It was fantastic. Thanks Kristen and Ben for letting my crash you party.

For the first time in 3 years I was totally single and totally happy to start a new year that way. It feels like a truely fresh start for me this year. I feel like I have the chance to make it whatever I want and that feels great. I also feel like I am taking more control of the things in my life that I can and letting go of the things that I can't. I love it.

So, to all of those that I love and care about Happy New Years. I hope that everyone can feel as great as I do about this upcoming year. I hope that we can all make this the best year yet in our lives. And always remember, we are never given any trials that we cannot overcome, all we need is faith in our father in heaven and the right attitude will take us a long way.