Sunday, December 26, 2010

Goodbye 2010


I cannot believe that the year is already ending. It has gone by so fast, and so many things have happened. I have noticed the older I get the faster the years seem to go, and this year for some reason went so fast. Just a little recap:

I was laid off from the airline after almost 9 years of service. Went back to Hawaii for the 3rd time and this time we went to the Big Island and stayed in Kona with my aunt and uncle, it was an amazing and very fun trip. It was so nice to have Mike and Becky with us for the trip I think all of us needed the vacation. I found a new job shortly after getting home and now I am working for Melaleuca, if you want to know more about the company just ask. I have recently got back in touch with an old friend from high school that grew up in the ward and we are spending a lot of time together, he is a great guy and we are going to see what the future brings.

It was a great Christmas and I am looking forward to New Years. I cannot believe that in less than a week it will be 2011. Here is hoping that the new year brings just as much happiness and good memories as the last one did. To all of my friends and family, I love you and I hope that this holiday season has been wonderful and full of love and laughter.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Eat, Pray, Love

I know several women that have read this book and they all have different opinions about it and how it has affected them. So as I sit here thinking to myself about it and how it has affected me I thought that I would put it into words, if not for those of you out there that read my blog for myself so that I will always remember how I felt.

This book for me was a little bit of a self awakening. I went through a period after my divorce that I like to call my self discovery phase. I had to find out who I was and who I wanted to be. After being a relationship that steals your identity you have to find out who you have become because of those experiences. I am not sure if the post divorce version of Abbie is better or worse than the pre divorce version but I do know that I am a much different person.

After reading this book and reflecting back on my marriage and the events that led up to my divorce and the divorce itself I can understand the authors need to go on this trip. If I had been able to make a such a journey after mine, I like to think that I would have had the courage to do it. I know that not everyone has the need to rediscover themselves after such a heartbreak, however going through that rediscovery is one of the hardest things that I have ever done. I didn't realize how much of myself I had lost until I was actually divorced and looking at myself in the mirror thinking that I didn't even know what do to now that he was no longer a part of my life even though I was better off having ended the marriage. The author makes some very valid and important points that really hit home to me while I was reading the book. The one that really sticks out in my mind and I keep thinking about it and realizing how lucky I am that I did not have any kids with my ex-husband is when she quotes her sister saying "Having a baby is like getting a tattoo on your face, you really need to be certain it is what you want before you commit." I do want a family, and I am sure that when the time is right I will have my chance, until then, I will be patient. I am forever grateful to my ex and his family for the wonderful things that they brought into my life. For the love that they shared with me and for the changes that happened inside of me because we got married. I do not regret the decisions that I made and hope that I never will.

This life is full of decisions, and with each of those there are consequences to our actions. All that we can do is make the best of every situation. Love with all of your heart, even though it may get broken, it is the only way to love. Remember that no one is perfect, you have to have room for error, we are only human and that means that we get our feelings hurt and we don't always say the right thing but we are trying the best that we can. And when the chips are down and life feels like it just never going to get better, when everything is falling apart around you, that is when you discover who truly loves you, because those people will rally around you and do anything with in their power to help you put your life back together and move on. So I will leave you with a few quotes from the book, make of it what you will but try to look at it through the eyes of a woman who has been through some of the greatest pain you can imagine and she came out the other side willing to pick up the broken pieces of her life and put it back together the best way she knew how.

"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it." - Elizabeth Gilbert

"Tis' better to live your own life imperfectly than to imitate someone else's perfectly."
-Elizabeth Gilbert

"There is so much about my fate that I cannot control, but other things do fall under the jurisdiction. I can decide how I spend my time, whom I interact with, whom I share my body and life and money and energy with. I can select what I can read and eat and study. I can choose how I'm going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life-whether I will see them as curses or opportunities. I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak to others. And most of all, I can choose my thoughts."
-Elizabeth Gilbert

"We search for happiness everywhere, but we are like Tolstoy's fabled beggar who spent his life sitting on a pot of gold, under him the whole time. Your treasure--your perfection--is within you already. But to claim it, you must leave the buy commotion of the mind and abandon the desires of the ego and enter into the silence of the heart."
-Elizabeth Gilbert

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

A first time for Everything


Ok, so I am not really sure what to say. I thought that my life was finally settling down and I was finding a routine and things were going pretty good..... Well guess what I get for thinking. I have been working since I was 16, and in that time I have never been unemployed, I have always had another job to go to before I left the one I had. Well this time it is out of my control. Here is my story.

Yup, more big changes on the Horizon, and that is just where they are coming from. Horizon, the company that I currently work for and have been working for since 2001 is going to stop flying into Idaho Falls. So I am getting laid off, as of August 21st I will be unemployed and that is really kinda freaking me out. I love what I do and the company has taken really good care of me for the last 8+ years. But I also feel like everything happens for a reason, so I pick myself up and move forward.
To that end, I am currently looking for a new job/career. I don't think that I will be looking in the travel industry, things are just to unstable there for me to be comfortable going to work for another airline right now. So, I am looking at other options, maybe going back to school, or just a change of pace, maybe something a little slower and simpler. So if any of you know of any really good jobs out there that a girl could make a living and support herself doing, let me know. Right now, there is no job to big or to small to be considered.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Changes


I keep hoping that spring is in the air..... Unfortunately I live in Idaho and that means that we could end up with snow in June for all I know. I am so tired of all of the snow and the wind the cold, I am so ready for the flowers, sun, and heat.

Work has been kinda busy with the Spring Break rush, but things are starting to quiet down again. I know that things will pick up again in June though, Allegiant Air, the airline that we contract with and provide customer service for here in Idaho Falls is starting non stop service to Los Angeles on June 3rd. Twice a week service on Thursdays and Sundays, it should be pretty busy and fun to add an extra flight. The prices are really cheap to, so if you want to go and you live near the Idaho Falls area, check out the website www.allegiantair.com or get in touch with me.

So there are some changes that I am wishing for and some that I am looking forward to. Just life I guess, it never happens when I want it to, it just happens when it is ready to.

Monday, February 15, 2010

It has been awhile



So I am pretty sure most of my family knows that I am NOT a fan of Valentine's Day.... AT ALL.

But how can you really be unhappy when something like this shows up for you at work when you are have a not so good day and you just can't wait till the weekend starts.

I have to say thank you to the person that sent these to me, and I am grateful to have the chance to get to know him. Life is full of surprises.

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